i am back from japan!

i touched down yesterday morning at about 1am, finished doing everything and slept only at 4am.

im so tired now. i had like only 3 hours of sleep during the last two nights in japan cuz we had to wake up early for the tsukiji fish market.

anyway this is in the very early morning on the 12th of june. flight was around 1am. reached japan at 8.30am japan time i think.

took this picture on the plane. i think we were already flying above japan at that time. it looked so mountainous and there were clouds and so it looks like a picture!


the horizon was so beautiful!


then we touched down on nagoya airport. there was this mini quarantine area.


then we headed for the train station. this train line isn't run by JR. i dunno which rail company ran the line from nagoya airport to nagoya station.


vending machines at the waiting area


you know i saw one train captain shaving his chin away at the waiting area ~.~ i thought japanese had more manners than that haha.

looking back at the gates from the waiting area.


the trains at the station


inside the train to nagoya


a cute sign on the train door


seriously japan has cute pictures and signs all over everything, everywhere!

from nagoya station we changed to a JR Ltd express train headed for gifu.


ok i guess i'll end here. will write more about japan another day.

this is our rough itinery (where we stayed for for the night, doesn't really give any indication of how long we've been at that place during the day, so it doesn't really tell where we went what we did for the day)

12th june friday: gifu
13th june saturday: shirakawa go
14th june sunday: hirayu <3333
15th june monday: takayama <3333
16th june tuesday: toyama
17, 18th june wednesday, thursday: (tateyama) murodou <3333
19th june friday: matsumoto
20th, 21st, 22th june: tokyo

as you can tell, i really liked hirayu, takayama and the tateyama alpine route. toyama and matsumoto were more like a stopover in between destinations (cuz of time constraints and the large distance between the different places) so we only stayed there for the night, didn't really do anything much there.

japanese girls in the less urban areas of japan (like those in takayama, countryside towns and not cities) had very rosy cheeks and light brown eyes, really different from those you see in tokyo, i think they're very pretty!

my exams ended yesterday, or technically, 2 days ago, cuz it's past midnight now.

anyway for the past few weeks i have been going to the library to study almost everyday.

and i don't know, ive been seeing people do weird things at the library.

it's a library, a public place, please do all your weird stuff at home!

some people can't seem to behave in public, they think it's their home or something.

strapya has this super uber cute handphone balloon accessory. i want it!

it's selling for only 250yen!

the link of the product here
buy it for me ^^

anyway my dad has gotten us a new camera. we got fujifilm f200 exr, i chose it ^^

i like my pictures taken with the camera! it looks more flattering than the pictures i take with my phone ^^


ignore the oiliness of my face though x.x it was after one long day!! other than that i think it makes me look good haha.

my garden


it's so small, i have to fit it in here, here's a link to the larger picture. (photobucket has a size limit too, so it is still scaled down)

oh ya.

i passed my driving test!

it took me a total of 4 months and twenty days since the start of my very first driving lesson on 7th of january!

i completed my driving lessons at about the start of april and from then till my test i had 11 (i think) revision lessons!! haha i wasted a lot of my dad's money. but i managed to pass on the first attempt so all's good ^^

but i still can't park in carparks yet, i need poles to guide me :( gotta find some time to go practise parking.

anyway during my test the traffic light broke down. and there were a few other difficult situations but i was basically hypnotising myself in my mind saying things whenever i made a serious mistake like 'why do i care? i have passed. this is nothing! back to driving!'

but of cuz at the back of my mind i was thinking like shit i wonder what the tester is thinking he has probably given me an immediate failure but i was thinking of my crazy positive 'i have already passed why do i care!' thoughts again and again to drown out all the negativity!

and it worked! i passed!!

and i also put my cross in my jeans pocket so i think it helped me too ^^

i'd be boarding the flight in less than 24 hours' time!

oh, i bought maybelline's gel liner today!!



what can i say. I LOVE IT!!!!

it is better than mac's gel liner in my opinion!

actually i can't really compare, my mac fluidline is in black.

my maybelline gel liner is in brown.

but the maybelline gel liner is sooooo creamy! mac is not creamy!

and the brown is the perfect brown seriously! it has pretty pink shimmers in it too! and it spreads like a dream! it gives a soft yet subtly defined line which really complements my eyes!

but i think eyeliners i like are probably eyeliners other people won't like. i think most people like very well defined intense black eyeliners, like those pitch black liquid liners which give you very dark and clean cut lines. i don't like those, they make my eyes small! i prefer soft lines, not too well defined, and soft browns. now those make my eyes 2x as large than they really are!

most of my commercial makeup are from mac, this is the very first maybelline product i bought. but i think it's good!! but i don't know how long it can last on my oily eyelids, i only tried it for a short period of time. mac fluidline smudges a little on me after half a day.

and i also bought fake lashes today. gonna try it once im back from japan and gotten new glue cuz i bought the wrong glue, i bought a dark coloured glue!! i wanted a clear one.

my exam starts on 3rd of june!

will end on the 9th.

please help me pray that i can study well, study smart, study hard, not stuff like good luck or crap like that, i wanna be smarter and i want my grades to reflect my intelligence!

haha i want to be smart! i want to do well in exams!!

anyway im so tired, my revision classes have been ending really late and im reaching home around midnight x.x

and right now there's a very very hungry mosquito flying around me urghhhhhhhhhh. mosquitoes should be wiped out from this earth.

am i very weird in real life?

i think sometimes people get exasperated at me cuz i do weird things outside. and my friends would be like, 'i don't recognise you!' haha i know they don't mean it, a lot of them think im interesting, but i think people are sometimes thinking that im very bizarre.

my driving test is on wednesday 27th may. im hoping i don't do some stupid major mistake and i should be alright. i hope so!!

i wanna scream now.
i can't scream.
RRRRRRRR.
why why why why why!

i'll be back on the 9th of june.

see you till then.

^ haha childish sounding title

we really need to save the world!

my friend took a plastic bag to carry two puffs today from the shop to the school whicb is like 100m away. you can carry it in your hand!! you don't need a plastic bag! can you imagine, that plastic bag is used for at most 5 min then thrown away?? anyway i told her never to ever take a bag again in future if she buys only 2 puffs or less. she agreed, i hope she does keep to her word!

seriously. please try to do your bit in saving the earth. do not use things you don't need! say even if for that 5 mins while walking to school, even if your hands may be full due to holding the puffs, it's only FIVE MINUTES. and you only hold them in one hand, your other hand is still free!! i don't see why people need to take a bag just for that!

please! do not waste anything anymore! why is the weather so bad nowadays? it's cuz our little bad actions everyday are contributing to the wastage that is piling up everyday, resources getting locked up in things like plastic, styrofoam and other items that are not easily broken down/cannot be recycled, unnecessary energy is used to make all these items that we do not have a need for contributing to extra the heat and carbon dioxide that is making our world die!

please think twice before you take that plastic bag! and there are also many other things, just that i can't think of any for the moment. i am putting in effort to reduce my carbon footprint, please do your part too!

let's see, today is the 10th of may!! i started this post like more than 10 days ago! aha~

anyway i got my hair cut 3 days ago, the cut is not bad, but as usual, the front got cut way too much.. i wanted the hair at the side of my face and my fringe to remain long but they got chopped off as usual despite my protests :( but it doesn't look too bad i guess. i look extremely cute now in fact, like a kid haha. but without the long hair at the side to hide my face, my face now looks fatter!!! X.X

anyway i really hate the weather.

for the past couple of months my mom has been making fruit blends. she wanted to make some fruit juice mixture, but it was too messy and she decided to use the blender instead and blends all sorts of weird mixtures and the pulp is not taken out so it's slushy and funny. she blends in the cores of the fruits too including the seeds, add in weird stuff like bittergourd (yes she ever did that once god it was yuck!!!!) and stuff like white/black fungus. i don't mind white/black fungus, but in fruit blends?????? and she makes all of us drink this every night.

and today she made a mango puree/smoothie.. it was very nice except there was white fungus in it. crunchy white fungus in a smooth mango smoothie. it is not all bad, but it is just weird!

anyway im gonna force myself to go swimming tomorrow. i need to lose weight after seeing how people around me have lost so much weight. i need to lose 4 kg!!! im around 48~49 now and i wanna be 45 ~.~

and everyone says i need to tone up. and i think my upper arms are so gigantic. argh.

but i cannot starve, i will die if i were to starve. neither can i eat a little, i need to eat a lot just to even feel half full and i'd be miserable if i were not at least 90% full :(

anyway im trying to get off my lazy butt and do something to lose weight and tone up.

ahhh i am really tempted to take half a year off school, or probably only do one subject. i wanna learn the guitar properly for once!

anyway here are pictures of my new hair!

before my haircut (the morning of the day i got my haircut)

ahh long and nice, except that most of the time my hair is very thick especially at the part around my chin and i don't like looking like a mushroom head.

just after the cut

ahh i look weird here but whatever. see who's in the mirror! haha~

back of my hair

picture taken by esther's mom, she seemed more excited than me and was trying to make me take more pictures of my hair. haha.



and it's obvious she can style my hair way better than i can.. my styling is so hopeless!!!

the day after, my own styling ~.~

it's so flat :( and today's styling was worse, argh. i need more hairstyling skills.

the hair when it's natural, no styling, ok i did mess up the top a little bit to get a bit of shape but no wax and nothing else.

(aha don't i look different here? no circle lens! and w/o circle lens i will open my eyes slightly smaller for pictures or else there'll be a lot of white underneath my iris if i open my eyes normally and it's ugly!)

anyway that day my hair had wax/hairspray in it and i wanted to take a nap in the afternoon and didn't wanna deposit any wax onto my pillowcase and so i just grabbed a t-shirt for my pillow to wear before i put my head on it. my pillow looks so cute! :D



i hardly wear this t-shirt now cuz it's so old and has thinned a lot and has a lot of holes especially at the back.

i had a very very very nice driving instructor yesterday ^^ friendly and encouraging instructors actually do exist!!!! (actually my other instructors are very nice too, but yesterday's one was ultra ultra ultra nice) anyway he recommended that i go get a fixed instructor as my test is coming up soon. i wanted to book one particular instructor, but it seems that someone has booked him already :( only managed to book him for one lesson :( ah :( sad :( but nvm, ive booked another one, at least i know im not gonna get the scary and fierce one anymore ^^ all my instructors are nice except for that particular one. he makes me feel lousy and drive lousy. I WANNA PASS MY DRIVING TEST!

anyway i feel like im eating too little, i need to eat more :( but im already eating more than an average person, and i think i will grow fat :( but right now i feel so weak and hungry x.x i wish i can eat less like other people. and i need to find someway to cure my addiction to bubble tea!! i really need to reduce my sugar and fat intake.

today is sunday.

you know, i really envy some people.

i envy people who can turn a situation around. when people give you criticism, or say you're working in the service line and someone complains, you're able to think fast, react in a way that help calm the other party down and keep your cool and think of solutions that work. i wish im like that too. i only know how to get angry, get frustrated, throw a temper, not think straight and end up making things worse.

i envy people who are really intelligent. people who can seem to come up with solutions for everything.

and now i am an adult but i really don't feel like one. i say stupid things, do stupid things, talk like a child, act like a baby. i wish i can grow up and present myself as a better person. be more sensible and matured and not think like a kid anymore.

anyway my mom will probably say stop wishing and do something about it instead of just talking.

yeah i need to do something. i need to change!

anyway i just checked my cbox. there was a spammer criticising my huge and ugly nose. whatever! it may not be perfect, but it has served me well for the past 21 years and i don't see a need to change it! im thankful with what im born with, im healthy and and im not very ugly or anything, if you're a firm believer in plastic surgery that's your own problem. and i won't mold any part of my face to fit your standard of beauty. i have your IP address and i won't hesitate to ban anyone who leaves stupid comments here. if you don't like what you see here please go away.

i opened two new pairs of lenses the past few days :D

brown



and blue, my blue lenses are so absolutely pretty!


pretty right!


i love blue eyes!


my new arm warmers

and two out of my 4 unopened pairs of lenses :D

i had a weird dream yesterday while in class.

i was pretty sleepy and fell asleep during class. then i was dreaming that i was in class (as if i were awake but it was a dream so there) but the teacher wasn't around in my dream, and i told my friend beside me that the teacher had very skinny arms but his tummy is so big!

haha! then after that i woke up and saw that the teacher was in class (he was in class all along) and got a little worried. then i was like, ok im sure i don't talk in my sleep. at least i don't think i said out loud what i said in my dream. it'll be so embarrassing ~.~

ahhh park yong hee i <3 you.

park yong hee makes my heart broken :(

if i were park yong hee, i'd look into the mirror and fall in love with myself everyday :(



ahh today is thursday.

now my eyes feel like dying cuz i wore my black circle lens for more that 11 hours and these lens don't seem to let oxygen through!!!! gosh now my eyes hurt and i have an eye ache.

good anyway. since i don't fancy how i look with black circle lens, i'll just not wear them in future.

today is friday.

oh ya on wednesday i bought another bottle of nfu nail polish (nfu oh #60). ahhh they ran out of stock of another one i wanted!!!!! x.x anyway the one i bought is reddish black with opal flakes that look red/gold/green from different angles. here i layered it over my skin food red nail polish. let me tell you it is soooooo gorgeous when layered over red!




isn't it so gorgeous????? i love love love it!!! i feel like showing off my nails to the whole world!

today i finally bought blotting paper!!!! i got a very oily face ~.~ and i ran out of blotting paper like a couple of months ago and didn't have the chance to buy it.

anyway today the girl at the store recommend that i try this. i used shiseido blotting papers but sasa doesn't stock it anymore :(



anyway i didn't notice the name of the blotting paper and bought it.

and it turns out to be powdered!!!!!!

ahhhhhhh. nvm. i'll use it i guess. i just wanted a pure paper pulp blotting paper. not the clean&clear type of god knows what kind of paper is that (and it had pore clogging mineral oil in it x.x). i also don't wanna use powdered. i like pure paper!! it's thin and good and tough! i miss the shiseido blotting paper, i wonder if i can get it at shiseido counters?

yay. waiting for my new contacts to come in. they just got sent out at the korea airport :D im gonna have 5 new pairs! :D (3 from another local seller though). i guess it sort of an unhealthy obsession. but out of these 5 pairs im only gonna allow myself to open two ^^

i love sausage mcmuffin with egg!! :D:D:D had it for breakfast today! i love mcdonalds!!! :D i like the buns for the mcmuffin, i wonder what kind of buns are those!!!! the slighty chewy and powdery buns. i wish i could find such buns in the supermarket!! and not bread buns!

i am so tired right now. i have been very tired the past few days.

i don't know why, but as i grow older it seems i have been getting really tired, and am easily exhausted.

i will join mensa probably next month. i sent them an email to ask if they accepted my old score (took it way back in sept 03), and they said i could rely on it to join. i wonder what are the benefits of joining mensa. i'll join and see i guess.

seriously i wonder what does very high IQ actually do, i think a normal IQ of say 130 would suffice for most people for everyday, for schoolwork, or workplace skills. for those who know my actual IQ score, it's higher, but i don't necessarily do well in school tests (in fact im pretty weak in some subjects), sometimes i can be extremely unreasonable, sometimes i seem to have a complete lack of common sense. it's like in real life my intelligence doesn't seem more than an average person. sometimes i'm just dumb and do stupid stuff and say silly things. argh.

if i had my way i rather be musically talented and be able to compose tons of stuff and play the guitar. i would be a better person, kinder and have more compassion and be less hot headed.

today is 5th april.

ive been thinking a lot these few days.

my mind is just revolving around the unfairness in this world.

like i said previously, i consider myself lucky.

at the same time, it's making me feel horrible and i cannot do things i can do less privileged people cannot without feeling guilty and i know it's not my fault im born in a lucky situation but thought of the amount of suffering others are going through just keeps playing in my mind again and again.

today the papers had an article about CEOs around the world, and for the american CEO, they're paid for failures.

how did this whole recession come about? selfish short term gains. huge profits are earned , it made the performance of all those smart idiots (smart cuz they know how to earn money for themselves, idiots cuz they are big fat idiots) seem outstanding and they earn big fat bonuses. all these at the expense of long term goals and gains. ultimately, creating something out of nothing and making huge bucks out of it is soon gonna spiral out of control and please no one can say they didn't see this day coming. and they just collect their bonuses and run away.

leaving the rest of the world messed up, making people lose their jobs, their roofs over their heads, making them worry when their next meal will be, worrying if they can pay for their children's education. i hate the way how some people have completely no compassion for others and don't have any conscience.

april 7th

i love my violet lens!


BUT! the right side has expanded and gone out of shape! (not out of shape, but it's bigger than the left side x.x) so now i cannot wear it anymore :( i don't know why, i wanted to wear it yesterday and when i looked into the mirror my eyes were like o.O ahhhhhh i don't know if i should buy this lens again, the other colours are fine though i wear them more often, and there are other lenses i wanna buy for the moment, so i think i have to put these aside for a while :(

and i still love my grey lens


my other violet lens


and im so happy i look decent w/o circle lens and w/o makeup


it looks like this picture i took last year


i have uploaded this song from proposal daisakusen (can't remember if it's spelled this way) it's so nice!! it's those songs you listen to when you're sad and you'll feel better. ahhh i really liked the show!! except that i think that actress of the main girl character didn't act well x.x she kept acting cute and it just made me irritated.

i feel a little depressed today.

i drove extremely horribly and dangerously today. i realise, with certain instructors i tend to drive better (or is it cuz they don't point out my faults and stress me out?), and with certain instructors i get nervous and start making stupid mistakes.

whatever it is, i must drive better next week!

anyway when your day starts out badly the rest of the day feels like shit.

anyway i think life is very unfair.

sometimes i wonder what the hell am i doing. im here wasting my parents money, wasting their time, wasting their efforts and so far i give them nothing in return.

on the other hand, people are out there starving, having low paid jobs, losing their homes, and esp people in third world countries, when i read or see pictures about them i don't know what to feel.

the recession is not even affecting me currently. i have more than enough food, a roof over my head, given the opportunity to go overseas from time to time.

im far from rich. but when i compare myself to people who do not come from a well to do background, sometimes i think i don't deserve being where i am currently.

but of cuz please don't ask me to become poor or anything. i agree i am selfish. i just wish the world can be a fairer place and no one starves and everyone has a roof over their heads.

right now is sunday morning. i will have having a tutorial later.

i got new lens EOS m202


i wanna get the blue and brown ones. but these are quite expensive.

today is friday 20th march!

i have finally finished learning everything about driving, all the skills. now it's revision lessons left. i hope i don't get the same instructor next week which i got last week. they do alternate weekly shifts, so you have the chance of getting the same instructor every alternate week. the instructor i had last week was sooooo scary!! used to have another instructor for last week's alternate week, but i dunno why ive been getting this scary one lately! i feel damn lousy whenever i have this scary instructor.

i look so crappy when im natural.

yay. just add on circle lens and i look soooo much better, even without eyeliner. the magic of circle lens is amazing ^^

haha my forehead is terrble! im still waiting for it to clear up ^^

i should learn to accept my natural look more. im getting too used to circle lens now (and i must find some way to curb my addiction to eyeliner)

by the way, here are my neo 230 two tone greys, it is such a pretty grey lens! and i have rebonded my fringe!!!!!! it no longer curls to the side!!! YAY!!! except it is flatter now and left side (the long parts at the side) doesn't have it's signature flick anymore :( i like that flick. other than that i hated my curly fringe. my mom thinks my fringe is too flat now, she says she is struggling to make her thin and flat hair thicker and here i am flattening my hair! haha.

my lens look amazing indoors i love them so much!!!! they look good even from the side, and they give this eerie grey glow~


and in natural light but not very close to the window



in the dark corner of my room. i like how the lenses look in dim lighting!


and here i have my fringe all down. i seem to have lost my fringe parting after rebonding. i have to keep pushing my fringe to the side if i wanted a parting.


i think im gonna wash my fringe today. i had a hard time washing the back of my hair yesterday while avoiding the fringe at the same time. (also equally hard when im trying to wash my ears) but i think it's more than 24 hours, i think the rebonding should have set in quite some bit by now.

life works in ways i don't understand. but it's not necessarily a bad thing though.

im a terrible person. im a non practising christian. im born one, but i quit going to church since 12 (cuz i don't like my church, i believe in god, but i don't believe in churches) and i hardly pray.

but when im frightened, or feel helpless, then i'll pray! haha im horrible, i only pray when i need help. (but i also do pray to thank god whenever anything good happens to me)

i wonder how about people without religions? like when im in the dark alone (ok i am very frightened of the dark) i'll pray to god to keep me safe. at least i feel better. i wonder what with people without religions do? they don't possibly pray to anything? if i don't pray to god to keep me safe i will really feel 100% alone and even more frightened. not promoting anything here, just wondering what do others do when they're scared and alone. hmmm maybe they'll ask their grandparents/great grandparents in heaven to look over them?

im very good at creating a natural look like i didn't put makeup.


looks very natural right!!!! too bad it's not natural. my eyes aren't natural. they're eyeliner + circle lens you see. anyway i love my hair here, i wish they're like this all the time, straight with volume. it always has volume, but it's always so wavy and curly! @_@

this is 100% natural me

and this is already one of the better pictures ~.~ for circle lens, you may not think there is much difference (just look at the eyes only) but when you look at the whole picture somehow you'll wonder how come it's uglier but you cannot tell why.

i look more mature here


so happy ^^ yesterday more makeup came in the mail. so now ive got 5 more full sizes and about 7 more samples of eyeshadow :D haha my mom is getting a little mad at me for buying more and more makeup from time to time.

it's sunday mar 8th now

yay~ kisaki project on my radio blog~ i miss listening to jui's voice!

i finally bought one bottle of nfu-oh nail polish yesterday!!!!!!! the nail polish is so so so so so gorgeous! seriously, no other nail polish has such a nice effect like nfu oh! plus nfu oh nail polish also allows you to apply it in a way that gives you an acrylic nail effect (like gradients of colours) which normal nail polish cannot! (the nice lady at the shop taught me how to) actually i wanted to buy three colours in total, but 2 were out of stock, but they'll call me up once they stock up next week ^^ but i'll only be free to go down about 2 weeks later though.

however the bottle i received yesterday had a faulty brush and while trying to repair the brush i pulled it out instead!!!! so i think im gonna buy some polish remover later and remove the polish off a nail brush from an old bottle and find some way to put it in this new bottle.

anyway yesterday was my mom's 52th birthday!!! haha but when she tells her age to many people they cannot believe it, they think she's in her thirties -_____-|| personally i don't think she looks that young, i guess she doesn't look 52, but she definitely look older than 30 plus!

an old purikura i took with her~ maybe you might remember it, i think it was taken in aug 2007.

yes i had a major image revamp since then. i look so natural (it's fake though!! hahaha) and different now! :D my mom looks about the same except that purikura machines are very kind and don't capture your wrinkles so in real life she has more wrinkles that's all.

btw my dad has rheumatism. it started off a few weeks ago when he had some pain in his foot. anyway last week the doctor said he has rheumatism and should stay away from red meat and nuts and alcohol and i think he is a bit upset. well, he need not worry, since he has to cut down on red meat, it means we'll cook less red meat dishes for the family and we would be cutting down along with him so he has the family to join him in eating less red meat ^^ a bit sad, i love red meat. but my mom is like you better watch what you eat now unless you wanna get all sorts of ailments in future.

i love lamb chops/rack of lamb! :D

oh my god.

i feel so embarrassed!!!!!!

i can never live a single day without embarrassing myself in some way.

i just embarrassed myself 5 minutes ago.

i was trying to send a seller a picture file to inquire about something, as it seems there is problem with the encoding as i am sending an email in chinese.

and guess what??? i didn't send the picture of the chinese words i wanted to say, i accidentally sent a picture of my face!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

THIS IS SO GODDAMN EMBARRASSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah. i just hope the person doesn't think im a weirdo now, i don't send pictures to anyone i don't know, this is a mistake ~.~ i hope he or she will be willing to reply me!

and i also went to the wrong car for driving in the morning.

anyway today is thursday.

we have bought the air tickets to japan! ticket to nagoya on 12th june, coming back from tokyo on 23rd june. gonna reach nagoya at about 8++ am, so effectively we're spending the whole of 12th june in japan! :D unlike most tour packages where they give you stupid night flights for the flight to your destination and early morning flights back, a 8 day tour might as well be called a 6 day tour. stupid.

ahhhhh i wanna be more hardworking!!!! i have been extremely lazy since school started and i cannot seem to motivate myself! i wanna study but my laziness and tiredness will get the better of me and i hate it :s and i am having headaches recently. both from the lack of sleep and from having too much sleep. seriously i don't know what is the right amount of sleep i need in order to avoid a headache!

there was a toad in the bathroom yesterday! it was pretty tiny. i couldn't see it clearly at first when i entered, it looked like some beetle/cockroach, but somehow it looks different and realised it was a toad on closer observation. had to open the back door and shoo it out into the garden with a broom.

i want nfu oh nail polish and damn the fact i cannot get it anywhere online cuz there is a local distributor! DAMN!!!!! anyway ive emailed who i think is the local distributor and and hoping that they don't mark up the price too high ~.~ i hate most local distributors here, the price of many things here esp makeup is marked up SO SO SO HIGH! it's like so cheap in the US!

anyway nfu oh nail polishes are absolutely gorgeous. go find pictures of them and you'll fall in love with them.

I LOVE ONE POUND GOSPEL! KAME I LOVE YOU!

haha he's so cute in the show!!!!!! so adorable!!!!! and extremely silly too! but very very cute!! i like the music in the show too!!!! i want the soundtrack!!!

ahhhh i really like one pound gospel!!

im great.

sometimes i don't know how great i am.

just on sunday, i had a tutorial.

i went into the classroom, saw that my friends were not there cuz it was quite early, and i 'booked' the entire row (4 seats, for my 3 friends).

then after looking around i realised my brother was a few seats in front of me.

i thought he was studying for a bit before heading off for his own tutorial, so i went to talk to him.

then he said he was having his lesson in this classroom. and i was like, you're in the wrong classroom! it's gonna be my tutorial now!

then he and his friend decided to go out to check (there's the schedule and location on an LCD tv on every floor)

he came back and told me i was in the wrong classroom.

then i went out to check. i realised i saw the schedule for the morning class (it was afternoon)

argh. this is so great. i think everyone must be wondering what the hell i was doing in their classroom. thank gdness my brother was there, or else i would be still sitting there happily away till the teacher came.

and at home my brother was like, i dunno if you should be embarrassed or i should be the one embarrassed. anyway he said after i left the room his friend was laughing at me :s

right now im helping my mom plan our japan trip in june!! we're intending to start out from nagoya and end in tokyo. our rough route: nagoya - gifu - gero onsen - hida takayama - toyama/alpine route/shinano omachi - tokyo.

sounds like a lot.

you know, sometimes, when things are obvious you don't see them.

something can be right in front of you and you don't see them. someone could be saying something and you don't hear them. things that are directed at us, somehow we don't catch them. but things that are directed at others, seem so obvious.

ahhhhh. on friday winnie said i should speak more or else i won't be able to network x.x it's not that i don't wanna speak or hate talking to people, a lot of times, i have nothing to say. i am an extremely extremely extremely boring person!! and people i seem to be able to talk a lot to are pretty unexpected people. anyway i agree, i'll have a great problem networking in future, i hope it won't affect me too badly. but don't you find networking very tiring? socialising but it's so very superficial, just to help you achieve your goals. please don't tell me you can be true friends with 100 people.

anyway i really think yeefong (from my former clique) is sooooooo very pretty!!!! ahhh the more i see her the prettier i think she becomes everyday! plus she is 100% natural. by that i mean nothing did to her hair, zero makeup (not even eyeliner). the only thing she does is to watch her diet (she used to be fat when she was young but unless she tells you you totally cannot tell, she's so skinny now). ahhhh i envy girls like her.

and winnie and friends were asking me like, how come you aren't wearing makeup today??? hello???? as much as i hate to admit it, i am 100% dependent on eyeliner. just that i use brown eyeliner so a lot of people cannot tell but trust me if i don't wear it you can see a BIG difference. plus i also wore circle lens. and i kept on insisting i wore makeup (ok i guess to a lot of people makeup = thick face, cheeks, lip, eye makeup) and winnie was like if you're wearing makeup then all of us are also wearing makeup! (they wore none) i guess to a lot of people a bit of brown eyeliner doesn't equate to makeup since it's almost invisible (but it does make your eyes way bigger) and people don't know the power of circle lens.

oh man. i just counted the number of eyeshadows i have (including eyeshadows people gave me and samples, each samples can last me at least more than 20 uses). i have at least 44!!!! gosh!! 44!!!!! and i just bought somemore a few days ago. and i hardly ever use eyeshadow, like probably once a week. haha. i think i have enough to last me my entire lifetime!

right now im watching kami no shizuku. i think it's not a very popular drama, but i really like it!! i don't like wine, but i just like the drama! it may seem very bland for some, but i find it interesting. you need not like something to learn more about it, like wine.

although i myself have very little experience and exposure, the true nature of society is slowly showing itself to me as i am older and slowly venturing out of my comfort zone.

do not harm others, but at the same time, do not let others harm you. as much as i would like to think people have a good side, the truth is, many of them have a much darker side which overwhelms any good they have. harming others may get you tangible returns, but it's not gonna buy you happiness or give your life meaning.

that day my mom landed her hands on a sweet potato that looked like a goose.



haha and when my mom was eating it i was like the goose looks so pitiful.

my nail polish rocks. you don't need polish remover to remove it. you can literally peel it off!


and i really love having light blue eyes~ i think they're so pretty


and i look like a baby with black eyes

i guess black eyes aren't my style. they don't make me ugly, but they don't make me look any better either.

i want money~~~

MONEY!
MONEY!

i like this song on my blog by The Click Five. i don't listen to english songs since i stopped listening to the radio almost 5 years ago. but this song is so nice! im pretty addicted to it right now. my friend sent me this song. this friend is someone who's friendship i really treasure.

im sure most people have a friend like this. this person is not exactly a good friend or a close friend, yet you share all your troubles and sometimes secrets with him or her. stuff that you don't wish to tell even your good friends, yet you need someone to talk to and confide with. i don't contact this person often, it's more likely this person contacts me on msn. it's like the friendship is so fragile, like you don't know if you're actually good friends with the person or when you'll lose contact, yet you're so comfortable with the person to just spill everything out. and you're never judged, although sometimes ridiculous advice is given, but you know it's given with good intention. someone who encourages, and in return tells you their problems and makes you realise your life isn't so bad after all. (haha that wasn't very nice, ok ok i'll stop) but the problem is it seems i am receiving way more than im giving and sometimes i feel bad.

this kind of friends are hard to come by, even harder than close friends. treasure them if you've got such friends. you never know when you'll lose them. they don't belong to any category of friends, yet exist and cheer you up when you're down.

today's driving lesson was pretty amusing.

today's lesson is still in the circuit. i was at the junction and was contemplating if it was ok for me to turn right and due to some cars here and there and the traffic light suddenly turned amber and my instructor had to do a sudden brake for me and we're stuck in the middle of the yellow box, nowhere. and he was like "ok when this happens, we'll take out 2 plastic bags and put them over our heads and hide". hahaha!

my current instructor is very nice! had my first lesson with him last week, and last week (i had two lessons at a go last week) my first lesson was him he was so scary as i sort of lost touch with driving and drove extremely dangerously. and i tend to accelerate towards cars when i panic and he's like hello! what do you do when there's a car in front of you?? brake right?? this is a natural reaction!!!!

yeah i know my reaction is so not natural. but my mind is completely blank when i panic and my foot will suddenly gain a mind of its own and press the accelerator ~.~

but soon i picked up the pace and he became very nice haha. thank goodness, i was pretty scared at first!

sweet brown eyes! :D


mirror images



copying park yong hee again

it looks a bit off. took it in my dark room and used flash. i wish i was as pretty as her ~.~ well, i think the biggest difference is my pig nose ~.~ she has such a nice small sharp nose.

ahhh im having a ultra huge crush on park yong hee!!

ok. here are 25 random facts about me (took me so long to think of 25 different things to write. there are many things about me, but most of them i rather keep to myself):

1. i'm a boring person and i like staying at home. i don't like going to places which are bustling with people.

2. i feel extremely uneasy in places with too many young people. i feel awkward in front of people, more so in front of young people :s

3. i am very dependent on eyeliner. getting more dependent on circle lens.

4. i think jui has the most beautiful voice on earth.

5. i am obsessed with intelligence and intellect. i think most people are air heads and i don't like air heads. (i wish ive got more intelligence though, sometimes i think i am very stupid.)

6. my favourite colour is red (neutral reds or slightly cool reds, i don't like warm reds). other colours i like include black, white, gold, pink and purple. i don't like orange and teal/turquoise.

7. my dream is to be an indie rocker. but of cuz, dreams exist only when you're asleep.

8. im 163cm tall and my weight fluctuates. (im just wondering why other people who claim to be 163cm tall are always shorter than me??)

9. my favourite makeup brand is indie brand Aromaleigh. high quality makeup w/o commercial nonsense like synthetic materials, chemicals, excessive fancy packaging and what not. their stuff is seriously the best.

10. my shoe size is 7. (or 36~38 depending on the cut)

11. i don't like shoes that let me feel the ground. i like shoes with thick soles, you only feel the sole. feeling the ground, eww.

12. the mark on my right cheek is a scar from chicken pox, it's not a pimple! ive got 3 chicken pox scars on my face.

13. ive never taken a day off school before in my entire life because of sickness. only because of piano exams. or either i skip classes (which i do not do anymore)

14. my left eye is -2.75 and my right -3.25. i wear spectacles and look like a totally different person at home.

15. im not a nice person, but im not a horrible person either. please don't get the wrong impression of me.

(ahhh im running out of things to say)

16. ok i'll talk about food. i love food. i like shark's fin soup! (just drank it a few times in the past few days~~ ahhh) i also like sashimi, beef noodles, soups.

17. i hate stilettos. ahhhhh i really really really don't like stilettos! i don't mind heels, but not anorexic heels! stilettos to me are just shoes that are deformed and are about to topple over and to stop it from toppling over they put a thin stick and try to do a balancing act. rah! i like thick heels. i don't like thin soles either, soles need to be at least 1 cm thick for me! thin looks so ugly!

18. my hair is completely natural and untouched! i have never dyed my hair my entire life, never permed or rebonded it my entire life. i just pile tons of wax, clay, styling foam and hairspray in it. haha. but sometimes i also pamper it with jojoba oil.

(i really don't know what else to include in)

19. i had four premolars extracted for braces. both my parents have wisdom teeth, so i am pretty much fated to have them too. they have not appeared yet though.

20. i don't make my bed. i don't see why people make their beds and it gets messy again at night. whenever we change maids and the new maid makes my bed i tell her not to bother to. no point wasting her time too.

21. im trying to change my parting. so far, so good. trying to think of ways to achieve straight hair but with shape and volume.

22. ive got a birthmark on the side of my right foot (small dark brown mark, but not a mole). when i was young and couldn't tell what was left and what was right, i'd check with my feet to see which foot has the birthmark, then i would know which side is left, which is right. haha.

23. you know when you write the number 8, first you draw an S before joining the line to the original point right? i write my 8 by drawing a flipped S, that is, something like 2, before i join the line. i didn't know it wasn't the 'proper' way to write 8 till my mom noticed it. i can't get used to writing 8 the proper way.

24. in the past when i didn't have the house keys yet, and there was no one at home and i reached home, i would climb over the gate to get into the house and wait at the porch. it was a little dangerous though, cuz you can't exactly climb over the gate (due to the details on the top of the gate), but over the post at the side (which contains the letterbox) and right beside the post is a pretty large drain, which is mroe than 1.5 meters deep.

25. i can never watch horror movies. i get scared even of non-horror movies.

yay! you probably learnt new stuff about me today! it's monday now, i took 3 days to complete this list of 25 items!

ahhhhh i am in love with park yong hee. see her here http://saigo.co.kr/welcome.html gosh if there were such good looking people in my life i'd be sooo happy!! of cuz they must be good people too! (by that i don't mean necessarily nice, a lot of nice people aren't good people! i mean people who are compassionate and ethical and preferably intelligent)

ive not posted pictures in a long time~ here goes~

my new lens! :D migwang aryan blue! (no eyeliner for first 2 pics ~.~)


all pictures are taken wearing the lenses (gosh now when i take pictures w/o lenses i think im so damn ugly :s )


yes my forehead is in pretty bad shape. i don't know what to do to make it better.

im changing my parting! im trying to get a fringe like park yong hee. her hair is so gorgeous! her face and hair is totally perfect! ok my new parting:



and here im trying to look like park yong hee (i.e. copy her expression haha)

yes i fail.

did some filtering to change the colour a bit in photoshop so it looks like park yong hee's pictures (there's also colour filtering for her pics) i duplicated the layer, and set the blending mode of the duplicate layer to exclusion and opacity is about 45%.

here's the original


haha i decided to photoshop this picture too:

(background is original picture 100%, duplicate layer exclusion 43%, 2nd duplicate layer linear dodge 20%)

gosh now my picture looks so artistic! :D

im bored. ive done lots of morphs!


me & yamapi (not bad!) (click to see the morph details, original pics)


me & maki (pretty!)


me & maki & yamapi (very gorgeous! haha~)


me & kame (gorgeous! haha)


me & jun ji hyun (sweet looking, but a little plain)


me & avril lavinge (very exotic!)

and my favourite! me and lee ayumi!! she's so pretty! if you morph with her, you're guaranteed to be made way prettier!


haha ive got really nothing better to do but to do silly morphs. haha i give people big eyes and they give me straight noses and a non-flat face. (or you can say i give people ugly pig noses, flat faces while they give me small eyes! hahaha~)

if you wanna see pictures of my eyes with my new contacts click here for my photobucket. the new lenses are mostly pretty! (those watermarked with yujun are my pictures)

haha i feel happy now~ yay~ i think im going mad, but who cares~ i go happy over crazy things.

just transferred some english songs from my harddrive, songs ive not heard for years!! english songs in the past used to be so nice!

a special day is coming soon~ everyone be prepared~~~ don't disappoint me! (in case you don't know please scroll up and look at one of the bubbles floating around)